Dissapointed

After 4 years, I seen much,
Those every true form in every single mask.
I feel like myself in a chess game,
And I am a pawn,
You can send me to my death,
You can chose to ignore me.
But let me tell you,
Never give me the chance to move,
If I move, you will become useless.

Time is short, less than half a year,
I want time to come fast, go fast.
I don't wish to suffer so much already,
Hurry come, I don't waste my time already.

STRESSFUL

Haiz.. even thought exam was over
But I don't seem to feel happier
I feel tired and stressful
1 more week till competition already
still haven start practicing
HOME NURSING ah... oh my god...you are choking me
Stuck with MSSM nowadays...
Duty for 5 days ah....skip tuition, skip class
haiz...is it worth it?

INJURED

(Sigh).........
I was damn exhausted nowadays,
And damn sick too.
In one week, i get the fever two time,
But i managed to stand strong and continue with my life,
Although life was tough, tired,
But i still have a little amount of strength left,
I will not give, i will not regret.

I hurt my right leg twice this week,
First time is when I play soccer with bare foot.
Get kicked two time by friend,
And get stepped by so many boots.
Then play basketball bare foot,
The skin on the bottom of my feet wore off,
And my ankle damn pain.
Still got marching competition coming soon,
Hope to recover as soon as possible.

NIGHTMARE

22 April 2011
Dear diary,
I keep having nightmare nowadays,
Fear...scare...
Fear of losing everything,
Scare to think,
Don't know when will the nightmare end,
Hurry please, I am scared...
I want to run away...
The road in front of me seem endless...
I am tired, but still not willing to stop running...
I fear of get left behind...
Please AWAKE...Please AWAKE


                                                         ~ Nightmare~

surrender

i never thought i would have this feeling again...
omg...what is wrong with me?
why am i feeling to give up?
because of him?
today i text with her
but the time i text her,
i have the feeling that she is avoiding me...
she need time, i give her time...
she need what, i give her what...
but she still not happy...
i surrender everything, to feel the chance to live again,
i hold her in arm, and i let go.........i surrender

我有走错吗？

我不知我有没有走错，
我现在选择的到底我会不会后悔？
我觉得我伤害了你。
对不起。
除了对不起我不知说什么好。
我不想看到你这样，
你一向来都很倔强的，我不想看到你自暴自弃，
我很伤心，
我望到你，我心会痛，很痛。
我很辛苦，看到你伤心。
别伤心了。
别伤心了。

End Well ^^

All well...End well...
It's the beginning of April,
Many things seems to change again...
Haha, feel the numbness in my head...
A sound in my head keep telling me..."you already did your best"...

Today i feel joy, I felt a feeling about my society...
A felling that was lost when I turned f2...
Feel like not all hope has lost...
I wish the flame in my members and me will never vanish...

As for myself, haha...
Haiz....
How should say, maybe I should just forget about it ...
Maybe we would be happier...
HAHA...I wish to seek a easier life...
I will try my best